Nobody told me...

Nobody told me that labor would be so hard. 

I wanted to run away and call it quits. 

But I didn't.

Nobody told me that being responsible for a newborn would be so hard. 

Where's my white flag? I can't do this! 

But I can.

Nobody told me that hearing your baby cry would rip your heart out. 

Why can't I make it stop? Why can't I fix it? 

But I try.

Nobody told me I would look at my husband, and fall for him all over again when he is saying silly things to our baby. 

But I did.

Nobody told me I would love that little human more than life itself.

But I do.

Nobody told me I would question myself every day. 

Am I a good mother? Am I doing this right? 

But I AM.

Photo Challenge 2016

As I stated on my last post of my 2015 Photo Challenge I am going to only post my daily photo on my Instagram account which will also post to Twitter and Facebook.  So if you'd like to follow along, here is the list for this year!  You can also use the links provided above to follow me on Instagram or Twitter.  If you want to participate I am starting a new hashtag, #MsFishsPhotoChallenge2016 so all of the daily photos are linked!!!

I am also attaching the calendar I am using for this year's challenge,  I am starting with my first photo on June 1st, and this will go through the end of August, skipping weekends and the 4th of July. For a total of 65 days, and 65 photos!!!

Hope you decide to have fun with me this summer!

I will never...

When we discovered we were pregnant I had a list of things I was never going to do. Baby fish was never going to sleep in our room...

The first several days home guess where she was...Yup, our room, she now sleeps in her own room across the hall, in a swing because she's still refusing to sleep in her crib.

I was also never going to give her a pacifier...

Yeah, this week all she wants to do is stay attached to me...which isn't bad, but she chokes on booby juice and/or ends up completely emptying her stomach all over herself and me...so a paci on occasion is better than the alternative!

There were several other things I said I was NOT going to do.  Like leaving the house during the first two weeks, or allowing anyone other than family to hold her. Two days after we left the hospital I was in public, and went shopping after our first Dr's Appointment.  I was out and about visiting people and allowing them to hold her...and go figure at 1 month old she is perfectly fine, nothing bad happened by doing the things I never thought I would!

1 month old and still so tiny!

Team no sleep...

It's no joke when a new mom refers to herself as a "Mombie"...after the first three and a half weeks of mom-life my little Baby Fish has started having a witching hour, or two or three...it starts around 4:30 or 5:00 pm.  She fights sleep, and does not want to be put down, and there are very few things that will calm her. The boob always helps, but after our exorcist moment the other evening I am hesitant to offer it to her for comfort.  Another of the things that may help is "the hold" although that doesn't always work...

Breastfeeding

Guppy is doing such a good job breastfeeding!!!  And now that we are out and about more and more I have fed her in public several times.  Fortunately I have not had to deal with people that think I should go to the bathroom....even so, consider this a PSA...(with some foul language...)

Breast feeding ..... people piss me off
Posted by Ashley Osman on Thursday, January 28, 2016

Where has the time gone?!?

I meant to write my birth story out.  Well from the moment my daughter came into this world the internet and social media (with the exception on Instagram) just faded to the background!  My mom did a blog post about my labor on her blog, and you can find it HERE!  But, I want to say a few things about it from my perspective.  I woke up at 4:30 am having contractions, and went back to sleep for a little longer.  When I got up I sent my mom a message via Facebook Messenger so I didn't wake my dad up.